I want to add something to this, something that I am understanding now perhaps because I have slowed down as a person. Learning is HARD, really really hard. More so when there are tons of social, professional and personal distractions.
On top of this I am chased by procrastination. I have gotten a much better grip at this. But just as an example - I have tried learning Rust at least 4 times before since Rust got highlight on HN I guess. I failed each each one. This time, I have at least gotten to the point where I opened the documentation on Vectors! My goodness, who am I? Complete lack of patience.
This directly causes me to sense pressure when I see statements like "type 1/2" engineer. It is not the material that is attacking me. It is my own failure hiding under the shelter of ego.
I think this is an extremely common experience. At least it maps really well to what I've gone through. Small surges of "motivation" wherein I embark on projects and then they taper off, constant battles with procrastination, etc.
However, at least in my experience, it's possible to develop tools and systems to stay disciplined enough to finish what I committed to. Not every tool works for every type of project so it's a constant battle. The good news, though, is that you can fail at this as many times as you'd like (I certainly have) but you only have to succeed once!
On top of this I am chased by procrastination. I have gotten a much better grip at this. But just as an example - I have tried learning Rust at least 4 times before since Rust got highlight on HN I guess. I failed each each one. This time, I have at least gotten to the point where I opened the documentation on Vectors! My goodness, who am I? Complete lack of patience.
This directly causes me to sense pressure when I see statements like "type 1/2" engineer. It is not the material that is attacking me. It is my own failure hiding under the shelter of ego.